Putting all my eggs in one basket

In the DIPG world, I am a novice. The fact that we had never heard of DIPG, or known of any other child with a brain tumor, we feel, at times, lost. Where to start? What treatment is best? Do I go all natural? Do we do radiation? What about a biopsy? There are essential oils. I've heard about marijuana helping. Chemo is an option..

The list goes on and on. 

There are no right answers for treatment. Each tumor is different and of course, each child diagnosed is different. You do what you think is best as parents and pray that it works. 

The phrase, "Don't put all your eggs in one basket" seems fitting in regards to treatment for this kind of cancer. You dabble a little here... you dabble a little there. Trying different meds, different therapies, in hopes for good results. 

But where does God come into play? Doesn't He have a role in all of this? Some would say "No!" But for our family, we say "Of course." 

Why?

Because of Hebrews 2:13,

"And again, I will put my trust in Him. And again, Behold I and the children WHICH GOD HATH GIVEN ME."

Our eggs are all going into one basket. And that basket is our faith and hope in Him. He's ultimately the decision maker. He designed Molly. He made her just the way she is and He determines the end.

I have been worrying so much lately. So emotional and drained. "When will the end come? What will it be like for her and her last days on earth? Can I handle this?"

 But this doesn't need to be. I NEED to put my trust in Him. If I don't, then I'm helpless. I'm not able to do anything and all my hope is gone. But in him there is hope, comfort, peace. 

Breath. 

That is such a wonderful thought. I do not have to do this alone. We do not have to face the next few months blindly and anticipating the worse. We can rest in Him. He knows the secrets of my heart (Psalms 44:21) and knows what I struggle with. He is there to take away my fears.

For today, I remember these truths. Tomorrow I will need to start all over again and remind myself of what He has told me. But His mercies are new everyday, and I am so glad.